November 2011
1 post
RAMBLING OUT LOUD
I feel like the past few months have been overwhelming. I’m legally an adult, but I secretly just want to curl up into the fetal position and listen to the Libertines like the ‘good ol’ days’. Things have gotten so complicated, or my emotions at least. I’m leaving the east coast on January 24th to go back to Las Vegas (AMEN). These past few months have been absolute...
July 2011
4 posts
I've been an optimist up until recently.
Every day, I think back to that day, and I think of what could have gone differently, what I could have done recently. The answer is always the same: nothing. I can still write stories where everything ends up as I wish it would have.
Two very important people in my life have passed away in the past twenty days now. My mom lost her job. I no longer have mine.
SWAMPED.
March 2011
1 post
#morethananything
I hate when I actually develop feelings for someone. I hate keeping them and tending to them. I hate the downs, but God, I love the ups. I want this to go right. I want a stable relationship as opposed to the bullshit I had for two years of my adolescent life. I really need something to go my way for once, please.
“Call me a safe bet, I’m betting I’m not….”
December 2010
1 post
December 22, 2010
Fingers crossed it all goes as planned.
November 2010
3 posts
______.
Begin:
I wanted to write a few letters on here, but I realized it’s pointless if I’m not willing to say who they’re for. I’m seriously considering getting emancipated because things have been so bad lately. I hate complaining, I really do, but when I do: it’s a valid complaint. I realize that a lot of you in Vegas have tried keeping in touch with me, and I don’t...
October 2010
1 post
I feel like I should have more to say to everyone.
But I don’t.
July 2010
3 posts
Closure?
I suppose so. This is too sad, but it was necessary. It’ll work out.
I have five days left in Vegas..damn :/
"You're fine. No, you're better than fine."
I pretty much never have access to a computer or internet so I’m just not going to finish the 50 day challenge. I did write out all of the letters though, but I’ve just decided to keep those to myself.
I have ten days left in Vegas and I know they’ll pass by fairly quickly even though there is absolutely nothing to do at my house.
I’ve been on cloud nine for like a week...
Got my white whale bitchesss!
June 2010
18 posts
DAY 4: A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Age 4.
Grandma, I get it.
A) It is hard for me to genuinely like someone as more than a friend
B) It is even harder for me to make it known
C) I think I’ve become a little more close minded, opinionated, rude, etc. lately.
D) I like how I have your number saved under just your last name because you bother me so much now, ha.
Shiiiiiet.
Day 3: Your favorite movie
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, I think.
I’m not a huge movie person.
DAY 2: Make a bulleted list of everything that...
woke up
made coffee
cleaned
showered
laundry
got ready
talked to my mom
got Amir
went to Trae’s
went to Taco Bell
and so much more!
Sometimes what I'd really like to say is:
“You’re a nasty little slut, and he’s never going to like you. Please, stop trying.”
:)
DAY 1: Introduce yourself / List your likes and...
Jessica(:
Likes:
- night swimming
- cats
- good morning/good night texts
- good friends
- texting
- :)
- flannel!
- mint
- fourrrrrrrrrr.
Dislikes:
- flakiness
- liars
- nagginess
- ipod/phone dying
I'm ready!
50 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 1: Introduce yourself / List your likes and dislikes DAY 2: Make a bulleted list of everything that happened in your day DAY 3: Your favorite movie DAY 4: A photo of you taken over ten years ago DAY 5: A letter to your Crush DAY 6: List of what you ate today DAY 7: A youtube video you find funny Day 8: A photo of you taken recently Day 9: List some of your favorite tumblrs...
HONESTY:
“I’m really not that great. I know you think so, but I’m so fucked up. I’m crazy, literally. And I hope to God you find someone better than me.”
I am in a really good mood. :)
Go ahead, do it. →
Excuse me sir,
I love you. It just keeps slipping my mind.
Conor Oberst > every other man.
“For the first time in his life he realized there’s times When you can’t make it alone So now you’re giving advice as if you had the right To use a word like love It’s a negotiable term, what gets said’s not what is heard So it’s different then for everyone But you keep hanging around that college town with your new life your new lover you found And you...
If the window of opportunity opens
You crawl through that mother fucker (;
How do I know I'm cool?
One of my Tumblr posts was liked by a porn site!
Ha, awkward? Yeah.
Expectations vs. Reality
Life is good :)
Hahaha, the baby!
I almost feel like that isn’t even a joke anymore :p
May 2010
19 posts
I've gotten pretty brave,
and I’m facing ones of my biggest fears head on :)
August 1st..bye bye!
June 3, 2010
I’m a senior. It’s weird thinking about that considering I still remember my high pony tail, leggings, and Angelica t-shirt I rocked on my first day of kindergarten. I was so 90’s (;
Did Carly and Freddie finally get together on iCarly? At least he got his white whale if I’m hearing everything correctly.. >:(
I’m crossing my fingers that everything works out.
A third?
Maybe.
*I’ve lost all respect for you.
Bahaha,
now I feel really sneaky!
(:
“And if this is giving up, then I’m giving up. If this is giving up, then I’m giving up, giving up on love. Driving away from the wreck of the day and I’m thinkin’ of calling on Jesus. Cus love doesn’t hurt so I know I’m not falling in love; I’m just falling to pieces.”
You know you’re in a good mood when you can listen to depressing...
If that wasn't my mom or yours then it was my dad.
S H I T.
I’m literally about to throw up. Maybe I’m just paranoid. I really really hope that that’s what this is.
Yes, I'm using a mainstream song to describe...
“Give him time you can tell he’s been down for awhile, but my God it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles. Want to hold him, maybe I’ll just sing about it.”
(:
Today is a good day minus the slight headache.
Real.
When did I become anything short of real?
Goodnight.
“And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn’t.”
One more thing:
I’m never going to stop so you can quit being disappointed in me.
.
We've waited so long For someone to take us back home It just takes so long Meanwhile all the days go drifting away And some of us sink like a stone Waiting for mothers to come I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know All I really know is I wanna know And all I really know is I don't wanna know
Fair < unfair
The people who have hurt me the most are the happiest right now. That’s awesome, ha.
May 6, 2010,
Tomorrow marks a decade the most traumatic thing in my life happened to me. I feel like something is crushing my chest, and I almost can’t breathe. I’ll get through it like I have every other year.
“You don’t beat up God for taking her life, so why beat up her?”
It'll be fine.
I wish pictures of you didn’t always make me so sad. They make me wonder what I actually missed out on, and they prove you weren’t always this way. I miss you, but I won’t say it again.
An afternoon spent catching up would be good.