I pretty much never have access to a computer or internet so I’m just not going to finish the 50 day challenge. I did write out all of the letters though, but I’ve just decided to keep those to myself.
I have ten days left in Vegas and I know they’ll pass by fairly quickly even though there is absolutely nothing to do at my house.
I’ve been on cloud nine for like a week now, but it sucks so badly because I can’t take it with me. I could get on some really depressing ramble here, but I won’t because that is not what I want to leave behind.
I’m scared excited scared anxious. Well shit, I’m just really praying this whole moving thing is some sick joke.
I really don’t know what’s going on anymore, but that doesn’t make much sense, I know.
I think it’s kind of ironic how everything is finally falling into place right before I’m leaving. I really think one of you (the followers) was right about something. I’m really grateful that I can leave with some kind of happiness.
It’s kind of scary how I’ve done this same thing twice and it’s like I just don’t feel bad whatsoever. I just don’t care at all with this one. I don’t know if I’m becoming more like you, more selfish, but I guess in a sense it’s all working.
I guess the rest of my time here is going to be spent with the two people that mean the most to me. i love you both.
